30th of Oct, 2012

今天， 婆婆去世了。
知道她病了，没办法立刻回去，但也提早了该回去的日期，没想到还是来不及了。
刚接到消息时，虽是有点惊吓到，但还蛮冷静。但现在真的很悲伤，似乎现在才接受这事实。

It's striking me now, it's hurting me now. I thought I could be better as I've already know about her sickness, but really, it's too soon. I'm almost gonna fly back, why now?!

How we used to celebrate every chinese new years staying at hotels in Penang, waiting for dinner night to ask for "ang pau", how we used to go to her hotel room before check out to chit chat, how we used to go visit her at her house in BM, how we visit her when she stayed overnight at uncle's house in Alor Star. All these won't be the same anymore. She's like the leader, the pillar of our huge family. It's not gonna be the same anymore. She has always been the most patient grandma, the most knowledgable one giving advises to her children, the most elegant and classy grandma ever.

Grandma has had a great life when she's alive, I pray that she is having an even better life in heaven.

And this sad news is making me to reflect on my the other pair of grandparents whom I am even closer with, and also grandma of my mom's side. I can't even think of anything now. I just can't. They're not young either. Sadly, I know the fact, I know what's coming between us. They're growing old, I'm growing up. It just means we have lesser and lesser time to spend together.

People, please cherish your family!