Just do it

If you never act, you will never know for sure

This is so true.

If you get what you hope for in the end, you deserved it because you took the leap of faith for doing it.
If you didn't get what you wish for, it's all fine because you tried and you gain the experience.

I've been introduced more deeply in this I guess since I came overseas. There's no specific thing that make me suddenly realise about it. It's not that I heard about it only recently. I'm sure everyone of us read or heard such similar quote so many times in our life. But do we really accept it deep in our heart and put it into actions? Or do we just say yes in our heart and leave it as it is?

I felt that I'm so much more open to it and doing it since I came overseas is because that I've done so many more things that I wouldn't have courage or simply not allowed to do if I were in Malaysia. I do not regret any of it, even though there are some that I failed too. Thinking about all I've done, I will not trade any of them for anything else.

My dear country

I love the things you've given me,
I cherish you my dear country.

brightening it up

In a day, I experienced two incidents that brought me extremely different feeling. I thought I had a very very bad day caused by my mistake, added up with negative support from others. On the other hand, I receive warmth through people by my side. It's nothing much, just spending quality time at home. Because we're not family in biology sense, quality time has a deeper value. So much so that I decided to not let negative event to take the hold of me. I don't think that I am a very optimistic person, but I do appreciate alot, and when I feel grateful, it means the whole world to me. It is more than enough to remove my negative energy.

On the other day, I thought I had a very bad day as well due to an argument with the boyf. We rarely have serious argument, but yea shit happens. So I was really upset. But then, once we cleared things up, I know that we're lucky to overcome shitty incident no matter what. I'm glad that whatever happened, we're still us. I'm grateful for that.

When people talk about ups and downs, it's more like some big incidents in life stages. But I guess when drastic changes happen within one day, you could feel the mini heart attack too. Those two days really got me think abit further. There might be situations that upset us, challenge us. Negative emotion is certainly unavoidable but feeling sad shouldn't be too long. Look around, look at things that you've never noticed or you've taken it for granted, then give it a chance of appreciation. It's our decision to let positive or negative emotion to take control of us. Look for the beam of sunshine that will brighten your day.

Limitless

So recently I've read this very inspirational messages conveyed by a blogger (Revel in me), quoting from a motivational speaker, Julien Smith.

Below is the excerpt:

You don’t know anyone at the party, so you don’t want to go. You don’t like cottage cheese, so you haven’t eaten it in years. This is your choice, of course, but don’t kid yourself: it’s also the flinch.

Your personality is not set in stone. You may think a morning coffee is the most enjoyable thing in the world, but it’s really just a habit. Thirty days without it, and you would be fine. You think you have a soul mate, but in fact you could have had any number of spouses. You would have evolved differently, but been just as happy.

You can change what you want about yourself at any time. You see yourself as someone who can’t write or play an instrument, who gives in to temptation or makes bad decisions, but that’s really not you. It’s not ingrained. It’s not your personality. Your personality is something else, something deeper than just preferences, and these details on the surface, you can change anytime you like.

If it is useful to do so, you must abandon your identity and start again. Sometimes, it’s the only way.

Set fire to your old self. It’s not needed here. It’s too busy shopping, gossiping about others, and watching days go by and asking why you haven’t gotten as far as you’d like. This old self will die and be forgotten by all but family, and replaced by someone who makes a difference.

Your new self is not like that. Your new self is the Great Chicago Fire—overwhelming, overpowering, and destroying everything that isn’t necessary. 

I personally find it very powerful. Reminded me of the topic of limitless preached by Planetshaker's pastor last week. Being a non-Christian, I am trying to adapt the teachings and incorporate it into my life, instead of believing it through Jesus, or ignoring it just because of religion difference. 

Indeed, we should live our life borderless. We should go as far as we can, instead of just accepting who we think we are not, because of past disappointment or just simply due to lack of efforts. We won't know what lies in front for us, if we don't step forward. Afterall, there is no harm going beyond our current lifestyle. If there is anything, its experience. 

I've decide that I'm gonna push myself harder in everything that i try, not giving up just yet =)

环境影响

我们大家，生活在这同一个星球上，至少我就只知道我们人类，都是被环境影响的。

为什么这么说呢？

有些人，说自己是独立个体，我不是指他孤独一人， 而是说，他自认不被影响，拥有完全属于自己的抉择。他，要么没看清来龙去脉，被蒙蔽了；要么，仅仅是不愿承认而已。

给个例子：
你觉得某方面你与他人不同，因为你有自己的观点。把他说明了，若一天社会的观点于你的颠覆了，你是否很有可能拥有相反的抉择呢？ 是很有可能吧。那，你是被环境影响的，而决定另择他法。若你说你会依然选择先今的做法，你必然是受环境影响而选择的。

并不排斥其他因素，只想说，大家都会被环境影响的。差别只在于，影响程度的轻重，以及个人对环境影响的潜在反射态度。

你，可以顺从，可以跳开，亦可以半接受半否定。

但，却不能否决他的影响力。

30th of Oct, 2012

今天， 婆婆去世了。
知道她病了，没办法立刻回去，但也提早了该回去的日期，没想到还是来不及了。
刚接到消息时，虽是有点惊吓到，但还蛮冷静。但现在真的很悲伤，似乎现在才接受这事实。

It's striking me now, it's hurting me now. I thought I could be better as I've already know about her sickness, but really, it's too soon. I'm almost gonna fly back, why now?!

How we used to celebrate every chinese new years staying at hotels in Penang, waiting for dinner night to ask for "ang pau", how we used to go to her hotel room before check out to chit chat, how we used to go visit her at her house in BM, how we visit her when she stayed overnight at uncle's house in Alor Star. All these won't be the same anymore. She's like the leader, the pillar of our huge family. It's not gonna be the same anymore. She has always been the most patient grandma, the most knowledgable one giving advises to her children, the most elegant and classy grandma ever.

Grandma has had a great life when she's alive, I pray that she is having an even better life in heaven.

And this sad news is making me to reflect on my the other pair of grandparents whom I am even closer with, and also grandma of my mom's side. I can't even think of anything now. I just can't. They're not young either. Sadly, I know the fact, I know what's coming between us. They're growing old, I'm growing up. It just means we have lesser and lesser time to spend together.

People, please cherish your family!

August is here

Latest favorite song, ONLY ONE by BOA. Plus the dance moves, ohh so nice!

It's august already. How fast! New semester for CPA starting soon, in fact it's already staredted for me due to the upcoming events lol have to get it started early cz BFF is here! Gotta spend awesome time with her, and bringing her around. Can't believe this is the first time we travel together, Penang not really counted cz we go there too often lol. And I'm flying off to Sydney to meet plus accompany her tomorrow. Yes, tomorrow early morning's flight! Didn't see myself going sydney again, at least not so soon since I just brought my dad over there during my graduation. Not particularly into Sydney except for circular quay, the rocks, and darling harbour. It's just overly hectic in Sydney. This is finally hitting me now! Few hours more to sleep before flying off. We'll be going Adelaide then back to melb together. She'll be here for a month. Too bad cia cee is having classes now, if not it would be even more fun!

After she goes back, it's my birthday. Have always wanted to go somewhere else for birthday but it's always not that practical. (im gonna go japan for my birthday one day!) So I've decided we're gonna go for a one day trip , more like a picnic trip hehe so excited! It's gonna be a relaxing day, just the kind of atmosphere that I enjoy. Next event most probably Brisbane trip! There goes all my hardwork wages lol. The last time I went there was by trip, so this time round will be different experience. Gotta browse more info ASAP.

After all the enjoyable moments will be my exams!looking at the events rolling, seriously gotta study as much as I can whenever I'm free!

I love you

When you feel like there’s no way out
Love is the only way

Only be good to me
Only always smile at me
I said oooh, don’t make me jealous
Oooh, don’t make me become obsessed

I’m still scared of love
So make me trust you
I said oooh, don’t make me jealous
Oooh, don’t make me become obsessed

I Love You
I Love You

All day, I keep thinking about you
All day, I just stare at my phone that’s not ringing
Why don’t you know my heart being like this yet?
I still don’t know your heart either

With thoughts of you, I can’t go to sleep at night
I think of you under the moonlight and I confess my heart
Why don’t you know my heart being like this yet?
I still don’t know your heart either

Look at me now

Look at my heart
It’s burning like this
Please hold onto me right now
Before it’s too late eh eh eh eh

I Love You
I Love You

Don’t stop the love song
I will sing for handsome you every day
I say yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
I say yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Don’t stop the love dance
I want to spend this night with you
I say yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
I say yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Look at my heart
It’s burning like this
Please hold onto me right now
Before it’s too late eh eh eh eh
We can’t go wrong, bring it back

Don’t play the cat-and-mouse game with me
Let’s become a bit more honest
I said oooh, don’t make me jealous
Oooh, don’t make be become obsessed

I’m curious where you are and what you’re doing
Are you annoyed by me being like this?
I said oooh, don’t make me jealous
Oooh, don’t make be become obsessed

I Love You everyday
Don’t get away
Take me away
I Love You everyday
In everyway
I Love You

Why don’t you know my heart being like this yet?
I still don’t know your heart either

I Love You everyday
Don’t get away
Take me away
I Love You everyday
In everyway
I Love You

Why don’t you know my heart being like this yet?
I still don’t know your heart either

life after graduate

It has been so long since I last wrote on this diary. Time flies! But I really have to make some updates now so that I can read it and reflect myself in the future.

First of all, I'm doing things that I never thought I'm really gonna do it. As in I do not reject doing them but I never expect myself doing them in near future. I only thought of them as things that I can accept or I might do, which are waitress-ing at fine-dining, distributing flyers and www.themellowland.weebly.com Perhaps I am really pushing myself to be more independent. Or I see all these as part of growing up and more exposure. All I know is that I am never gonna regret my every decision, I am not afraid or shameful doing things that people don't see me doing. I know some people may be doubting why on earth am I doing those jobs for? or laughing at me doing these useless stuffs. Honestly, part of it is for financial independent, part of it is I really do see different things from everything I do. I can't really put it into words, but seriously, I always see/learn something new in almost every new thing I do. So, just do it yo! It's my life!

Of course during hard times I feel down and sad and disappointed and abandoned by the world yadiyada. A friend recently told me that I looked so steady facing my graduate life. hahahah really? I never thought I gave such impression to my friends. In fact, I was so worried, I cried, I got so disappointed. But I'm glad to have supports and love to bring me up and so I get over those negative emotions every single time. Then I look forward to every little things that's gonna happen in my life. Come on, life's short, everyone knows that! Cheer up, get over the bad things that happened, look at the bright side, be grateful! How fortunate I am to be here, to have all the people I love and experiencing a life like mine!

LOVE is a four letter word

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well there's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up
I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make

Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use the tools and gifts
We got yeah we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we didn't tend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn, how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I got, and what I'm not
And who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
I'm still looking up

I won't give up on us
God knows I'm tough, he knows
We got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

Not an issue

So being born with this height, there's good and bad sides about it. I do envy people with taller height, but oh well, I'm fine with my height. Not that I can do anything with it also, still gonna live with it, plus the little sad when surrounded with tall hot girls :O (insecure plus confident straight away drop la okay!) or irritated when I can't get things that are arranged on the highest level of the shelves. Stuffs like that then I'm abit upset. Till I came accross this post by one of my favourite blogger, Audrey and I decided to quote some of her views her, to make myself stay positive like her. hehe =)

1. First of all, you’re a girl and girls are not expected to be tall anyway.  It could be worse; you could have been a guy.  Do you know how hard short guys have it! (see, this is how you be optimistic)
(To short guys: sorry I don’t know how you feel.  But if you feel bad, look at it this way.  At least you’re a guy!  You don’t have glass ceilings at work places and gender discrimination!  You will also never be susceptible to vaginal mutilation.  And less likely to contract HIV I think)
2. Second of all, being short is an ice-breaker.  Seriously.  I suspect people have greater propensity to feel kindly towards shorter girls.  Say, if I make a joke about my height, it always gets a laugh, and people may add on to it and people bond over that (making jokes, not over my height)  And if they get closer to me, I realize that people tease me for being short affectionately, not in a bullying way.  I don’t see how is that a bad thing.
3. Shorter girls tend to be cute.
4. Everyone (male and female alike) feels protective over small girls.  They’ll let you squeeze to the front of a crowd without glaring at you too much cos you won’t block their view.  They’ll help you open your canned drinks wtf.
5. You will always look young.  Cannot think of a better reason than this.
6. People remember you.  Would you rather be remembered for being short (and cute) or forgotten?  Once a bouncer at a club in Miami didn’t believe I was over 21 although I had ID.  He told me I had to jump up and touch the sign before he’d let me in WTF so I did.  The key is to not take yourself so seriously and you’ll be fine.  The bouncer loved it!  He laughed and let me in, and looked out for me afterwards to say bye. 

I can’t help being short.  But there’s no reason why it should bother me unless I let it.  I love being this height!  I would never change it.

         < http://fourfeetnine.com/2012/03/21/being-short/ >

Now that's a lesson for me! Should start loving my height and don't let it be my obstacle =)

the way we ride

What do you think of your current life? When you sit down beside a window, sipping a cup of freshly brewed coffee, staring outside the window (I'm trying to create a nice atmosphere), reflecting back everything that happened in our life, do you feel that everything seemed fated? Well at least my friend and I have this same feeling. For example, if we didn't come to Adelaide to study, we wouldn't have met all the people around us now, we would have been having our unrelated life separately. Honestly, nowadays even if we're staying in the same neighbourhood, we might not even know about each other. But that doesn't mean that we should just leave everything to fate. Instead I believe that we should do our best in everything, and things will work out in the end. That is because apparently no matter what decision we made, life still goes on, the only thing that possibly get affected is just that we might be experiencing different challenges and experiences in our life. That's all, no big deal right?


I feel that it's actually very torturing waiting for result, but I am trying my best not to think about it since there's nothing more I can do for now. The only thing I've been doing these days are catching up with friends that I have not been in contact that frequent due to the hectic course structure. It's really nice hanging out with them and getting closer with them. And also my old friends, oh I can't wait to go back to catch up with you guys!!!

" See the way we ride in our private lives,
   ain't nobody getting in between "

 =)

M.C.

Seriously, I dislike the fact that woman have to have period every month. It is inconvenient plus uncomfortable at times. The only reason that I don't hate it is because of its ability to be pregnant. God knows how much I love baby lol. I don't normally have menstrual cramp in the past, but it started these few years, probably due to my not-so-good lifestyle since I left my home. So I googled up some remedies other thank taking pain killer pills, hopefully they're useful:

Reduce caffeine intake during those time and quit smoking around that time. Also lessen your alcohol intake. Excessive consumption of refined sugar has also proved to alleviate PMS. Oh and indulge in some exercise, not strenuous hard hitting routines, but gentler aerobic exercises. You could also try massaging your abdomen gently. (source) 

Probably not gonna work on me, I love coffee, like that how to reduce caffeine?? 

Place microwavable warm pack or a heating pad placed on your abdomen (lower belly) may help. Soaking in a warm bath may also relieve uncomfortable cramps. Some teens find that increasing their physical activity helps; others find that resting quietly for short periods of time helps. (source)

I always rub my hands until warm and place it on my abdomen, now I'm thinking heating pad would actually really help. Okay, will get one soon =)


I had the worst day ever during my previous period, most serious menstrual cramp ever. I just suddenly felt so weak, no energy and pale. I vomited and don't even have energy to walk. Stopped walking after 5 steps and took forever to walk the few steps that I would normally just take seconds. It was so horrible I will not forget that awful feeling. And I have to admit that I am a lucky girl. Baozhen was so shocked looking at me falling so weak. He eventually piggback me all the way back to hostel. Ah I don't know what would happen without him. When I was young, I have my dad to piggyback and pamper me, and now, I have baozhen. =)

Wish that I'll have enough good luck to be as happy as this old couple =P

Last Kiss

Anyone that watch Gossip Girl will definitely be able to relate this song strongly to Blair and Chuck's situation. But even you don't follow Gossip Girl, you'll also find this song very amazing. I could really listen to it for hours and hours. The emotion in the song has been brought out so well, it's so hard not to fall for it and being soaked in the emotion. Exam's drawing and I still have 1 more assignment to be completed. Plus tons of stuff needs to be settle before going back Malaysia for a long 3 months holidays. In fact I'm so excited to go back that I've bought stuffs for my family and friends. Would really be awesome to spend 3 months time only for my dearest family and friends without any other responsibilities.

L.O.V.E.

Read a very meaningful blogpost written by a blogger on her 1 year weeding anniversary about relationship. She is so in love and cherish her relationship with her husband so much that she keeps being a better wife. Those little things that couple will most probably neglect few years down the relationship makes her a wonderful wife. Have a read on her experience and advises below, you'll gain a lot from it :

I saw a lot of what I didn't want in a marriage before I even got married, so I was determined to apply simple things to my own one day. What I have come to value and learn the most so far is that you have to create the atmosphere of unconditional thankfulness and love, and not for one day take for granted that this person decided to spend their life with you. And I don’t even mean that in the fairy tale cliché way. In real life it's not always in the mushy gushy love notes, gifts, goo goo eyes, and dates nights. That is romance, and while very important, the core heartbeat of the partnership is in the everyday routines and communication.
The unconditional love can come from just how you react to someone when they come in the door. Understanding is an action expression of love. I try to remember to take into account the day that he had, what’s on his mind, what he might want to do to unwind and refresh for a second. Its human nature to be like: well, what about MY day and what about what I need and what I want to do? Marriage isn’t about you. When you create an atmosphere of putting them first, its only a matter of time before they do the same because they appreciate what they have experienced from you. Might take some time of pouring into that atmosphere being built, and everything might not always be "perfectly even steven" but when two people really make an effort to put each other first (well God first of course, but you know what I mean) then both are taken care of instead of competing and keeping score about who does more or needs more. Cause that's no fun, we definitely didn't want that. Unconditional thankfulness can come from the tone and attitude of how you talk to each other too. Creating an atmosphere where your spouse feels comfortable telling you things about their day, their thoughts, or being honest without an argument starting, getting jumped at, or feeling judged and demeaned is key. Saying “thank you” and showing our appreciation once they do something we asked them to take care of, instead of reminding them how long it took them to do it with a sarcastic thank you, is something so simple but can change shift the atmosphere to remaining positive and empowering. An attitude of entitlement is the quickest way to kill an atmosphere of thankfulness.
We are their wife, not their mother or boss. I never wanted my husband to feel like he needed a break from me. Anything they do for us should be appreciated and thanked, even if it’s something you think they should do… a real thank you doesn’t hurt anybody and it will allow the spouse to feel empowered to enjoy taking care of things. I know I enjoy cooking or making sure to get his favorites things at the grocery store when I know he notices and says thank you, and means it. Instead of just acting like because I’m the wife, I should cook and do all the food shopping...We decided even before we got married, we would always talk to each other like Jesus himself was standing right behind the other person. Just imagine Jesus looking over your spouses shoulder at you when you're talking. Sounds almost a little funny BUT let me tell you, it creates an applicable standard ofcommunicating in love. Marriage is about building the other person up and being in position to carry out what God wanted to accomplish through you both coming together. Is it always perfect? No, but when you have 1000% open communication and thankfulness for each other, what could've turned into a  “rough patch” can instead just be a “good relationship building discussion.” And then you move on to enjoying other... and making goo goo eyes ;)

Just Smile

Oh people! Despite this cruel world, I am still insisting on the good personality/attitude one should have. Without doubt, not everyone believe in what I believe. There are people that agree, some neutral, while some believe in erm nothing? Maybe I am too stubborn to give it up or I'm still waiting for tougher challenges to change my perception, but I doubt I will, I am the kind that will insist my principles if I have own stand on something. One basic thing, be RESPONSIBLE! Well you can be irresponsible but I'm pretty sure this kind of people will not live an awesome life. Simply because there are so many things in life that you'll need responsibility to work it out. Some you can be irresponsible of, but I'm sure there are some responsibility that you just couldn't jump over it. 

Finally watched SMURF!!! in 3D somemore lol but that's because we won the 3D passes given out by Rundle Mall Management Team. Super lucky, there's only 20 passes available! I love smurfs simply because they're too cute too resist. However I thought it would just be another cartoon show, but it turns out to be so great. I guess it's because they incorporate great values in the story. Two very important values: 

1 - Family is the most important, never leave your family. 2 - Think positively, from another perception. take a step back and think about the bad thing that happened to you, it is actually a chance for you to learn something from it. Just like how Grace convinced Patrick to looked back at the arrival of the Smurfs as a once in a life time experience despite they sorta messed up Patrick's job in between. It's a once in a blue moon incident indeed.

Smile and life goes on =)

同类

“  雨後的城市寂寞又狼狽
  路邊的座位它空著在等誰
  我拉住時間它卻不理會
  有沒有別人跟我一樣很想被安慰
  風停了又吹我忽然想起誰
  天亮了又黑我過了好幾歲
  心暖了又灰世界
  有時候孤單的很需要另一個同類
  愛收了又給我們都不太完美
  夢作了又碎我們有幾次機會
  去追
  不曉得為什麼愛又稀少又昂貴
  雲在半空中被微風剪碎
  回憶也許美可是正在飛走對不對
  啦啦...
  天亮了又黑我過了好幾歲 ”                        - 孙燕姿 “同类”

最后一个学期了，终于要毕业了。

毕业了，人生又该谱怎样的曲呢？

未来好接近又似乎好遥远，因为它代表着得在浩瀚地地球里找个点，短暂或长久，原地或迁移，那个点真的好难掌握，好难决定。

离乡背井第四年了。

四年里，进入了四个不同的环境探索。

住了四间房，读了三所学校，住了三个城市，两个国家，还有一份两个月的实习工作。

四年里，总在适应新环境。

现在，终于觉得好累了。

终于，好想放弃了。

一个又一个深夜，静下思绪，心里载着满满对亲人与友人的想念。

这样的夜晚，又如何能控制泪水呢。

泪痕载着邮差先生无法传递的思念。

感激我有这个机会，到国外见识了，也体会了异乡子的思念之痛。

很庆幸能拥有这经验，但，确实不容易。

Bersih 2.0

Gotta admit, I am never an activist, not even someone that can tell you the full story of any political issue, not even a tiny one. But since the spread of Bersih 2.0, I am so aware, so much attracted to find out more about everything related to it. 

Some simple facts about Bersih 2.0 :
1. Its also known as The Coalition of Clean and Fair Elections
2. First public demonstration was on November 2007.
3. Latest demonstration was on 9July 2011.
4. Calls include:
    - Clean the electoral roll
    - Reform postal ballot
    - Use of indelible ink
    - Minimum 21 days campaign period
    - Free and fair access to media
    - Strengthen public institutions
    - Stop corruption
    - Stop dirty politics

Honestly, I am so impressed and proud of every single individual that attended the rally, they teached me a very valuable lesson. We, Malaysians can still be so united, helping out each other, despite the dirty politics. Their acts have shown great moral values in them to serve the same aim (Bersih 2.0 calls), treating each other as a family across the differences of race and language. Just like any other Malaysian, I know that the politics in Malaysia is just not that fair, same goes to the history in Malaysia. And thus I am slightly bias/ racist. But the videos I've watched, articles I read recently, just prove me wrong. This is also the reason why the Bersih 2.0 has such a huge impact on me, like totally crushed me down. I have been watching lotsa videos and photos and articles that my friends posted/linked to. And I cried, yes I literally cried! I am so touched and proud! They fought for us, for every single Malaysian! If you feel nothing, you are totally heartless! You are someone's child, or maybe someone's siblings, someone's boyfriend/girlfriend, or someone's parents, and so are they! They are someone's loved ones, but they are there, fighting for all of us. Not to mention that there were even old people that went all the way to KL, some went alone, and ended up being drenched wet!

This video below shows some of the clips combined together, showing the rally from different areas. In Australia, they held their rally in front of parliament house, walk along the busiest street, so what? We have freedom of speech, freedom to act! But through this video, Malaysians were attacked by tear gas and water cannons for a peaceful rally! Worse off, the people don't have any weapon on them, or do you wanna call their water bottle as their weapons? I felt so ashamed on the government and police, do the people deserved such treatments? Since young, we've been told that police will protect the citizens, police will help the weak, police is always the good guys. Well, how true is it?

The link below is a well-written confession by a participant of the peaceful rally :
http://kyspeaks.com/2011/07/10/my-account-on-bersih-2-0/

And after all the incidents that happened during the rally, guess what? Newspaper are controlled by the government to report it with a whole new storyline!

For those that don't read Chinese words, its written "The governement had decided to provide the stadium for the peaceful rally, however the offer was rejected. This obviously shows that they intend to strike on the streets in order to attract attention of others, giving other country the impression that our government is unstable, and that the authority is treating them violently".

What nonsense is this? As far as I am concerned, no permit was given to them, and that is why they held the peaceful rally on the street. 

Just wait.. Not everyone is gonna be fooled by such stupid and fake reports. The world knows what is happening. And importantly the peaceful rally had brought up all our spirits and love to our home country.

Sorry That I Loved You

Might not be my most favourite song, but meaningful lyrics, well-written I would say...





For all of the times that I tried for your smile
For making you think that I was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine

For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind

And I`m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was fallin in love with you
Im sorry that it came true but sorry doesn`t turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

And Im so sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by

For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when I fled the scene
Sorry love， for wasting your time

An apology now after all of this time
Won`t make any difference tonight
But im hopin "im sorry" will open your mind
To love love love love in your life

記得

誰還記得是誰先說 永遠的愛我　
以前的一句話是我們 以後的傷口
過了太久沒人記得 當初那些溫柔　
我和你手牽手說要一起 走到最後

我們都忘了 這條路走了多久　
心中是清楚的 有一天 有一天都會停的
讓時間說真話 雖然我也害怕　
在天黑了以後 我們都不知道 會不會有以後

我們都累了 卻沒辦法往回走　
兩顆心都迷惑 怎麼說 怎麼說都沒有救
親愛的爲什麼 也許你也不懂　
兩個相愛的人 等著對方先說 想分開的理由

誰還記得愛情開始變化的時候　
我和你的眼中看見了 不同的天空
走得太遠終於走到 分岔路的路口　
是不是你和我 要有兩個 相反的夢