the question remains

Hate to admit that I'm still stuck at this stage, I'm still floating.

Remember the random discussion with a friend the other day, and one of the point that shook me was that, "I know what I don't want, but I don't know exactly what I want", she said.

Well, for me, I guess I know what I like, actually I can list them down, but same thing, I don't know exactly what I want with my life. I used to be so clear of my pathway when I was much younger, I was so certain that I wanna study overseas (despite I don't know if my family could financially support me, was too young to think of money issue, how silly!). I also plan work in audit firm then do some investment and eventually open a tiny cafe when I reaches a certain age. How smooth that I've imagined it to be! Fair enough, I've managed to study overseas, and about to head to the next stage, working in an audit firm.

But, the question is, how do I get around getting in an audit firm here in Australia when economy is not doing well, not to mention the competitiveness and increasing visa requirements. Have been trying my luck for 8 months now, no luck so far. Been to interviews, and what's stopping me is amount of experience I have. It's like an egg and chicken situation. Sigh. Good thing is I'm also taking up CPA in the mean time. But, really, if I didn't land on an accounting job, it could be a waste of time taking it. At least I'm not losing anything I guess? Well apart from money and effort =.=

Got contacted by immigration department few days ago about my visa, have to go for health check soon. And once it's granted, I'll have 18 months to get PR/work visa or else, bye! This, which contribute to this post, and again, raising the question back to me. What in the world do I really want my life to be??

I've came across so many inspirational people that I admire. Just to mention, Suet from sweatlee.com and Kryzuy from kryzuy.com .

Suet studied abroad and went back Malaysia after her studies. And now she's with Teach For Malaysia, a program to educate children in rural area. I see it as a very brave and great decision. Letting go her opportunity in big city and willingly sacrifice it for the betterman of children living in rural areas, strangers who she don't even know at the first place. I do wish to help out unfortunates as well, many of us do, but I doubt how many of us willing to go to this extent, and give up what we could have now.

Kryzuy is a dancer, a blogger, a stylist, a model and creative director of WAGW in Philipines. She is around my age, probably even same age as me! I'm amazed by how much she has achieved at this age. Creative director, this totally wow-ed me! She's also top 2 karma achiever of all time in LookBook. She always looked so flawless in all her pictures, with different styles. But most important of all, she shines through her passion in fashion.

They've got so much passion in doing things they want to do. I guess a main push through all the handwork is their strong determination.